Episode Transcript
[00:00:09] Speaker A: Episode 71 of the Wiretap. We back. We back. We back.
Now, listen, some things have changed, and I guess how I want to start this is just by saying thank you to my former co hosts, Reese, Tay, Brie, and most importantly, Keon, because Keon was the one who opened his home for me when, you know, I was getting things off the ground. Oh, and shout out to Leah, too. You know, they opened their home to me when I was getting things off the ground. My apologies on that, but I'm going in a different direction.
I believe that, you know, things just kind of took a turn and we all kind of fell off the same page. Or maybe. Maybe it was just me. I don't know. You know, that's a conversation I'll probably have later with them.
I think in the future that there will be some things done with them.
I don't think this situation has severed all communication, but I do believe that at some point, we may be able to bring things back.
I don't know if it'll be like wiretap stuff, but, you know, if they got their own thing or they need me to do something, you know, I'm more than willing to help. I've never been a gatekeeper in this.
I've always been one to help people who wanted to get in this space, whether it be content. Film.
Not film, but cameras. Sorry.
Because I'm stepping into the videographer space as well this summer.
There's a bunch of new things I'm trying.
I actually took a break from social media because I'm in the rebuilding stages of my life right now.
So I'm taking the opportunity to kind of just sit down and sit with myself and figure things out and really hone in to what it is that I am destined to do. Right. I really want to figure that out.
36 years old. I feel like I'm being pulled in so many different directions.
And right now, I think, you know, with everything kind of happening, that this time is supposed to be spent getting things on track and building a real solid foundation where things don't crumble, you know, once I start building and it's okay to start over. You know, I was having a hard time with that, but I've come to the realization that sometimes that's just what life throws at you. Like, life will start you over because, you know, your foundation wasn't really solid. And it's like, yes, you may be meant to do this thing, but let's start here, and let's build a solid foundation.
So essentially, that's what I'm doing, redirecting. I'm figuring things out. I think I kind of lost, you know, my reasons for doing what I'm doing.
I started this, this podcast based on tapping in with the people of the community.
And I think moving forward, that's the direction I'm going to go in. You know, just tapping in with the entrepreneurial people or the influencers or whatever Baltimore has to offer. Because I do believe Baltimore is a beautiful city that has a lot of talent that goes unnoticed because maybe of where we are or maybe because, you know, we got New York above us, Atlanta below us.
You know, even Virginia has its pioneers.
But I really want to show the world, like, what Baltimore has to offer.
I guess in hindsight, the irony in this episode is based in relationships.
And I say that because, you know, I left one relationship with my castmates, and I'm in this space now where I'm doing things on my own.
I want to build relationships with the people in the city and different communities.
You know, white, black, Puerto Rican, Haitian, whatever. You know, I want to talk to these people and show people that there's a blueprint that you can follow to be successful. It may not be completely the step by step thing, but, you know, seeing that other people have accomplished things can inspire others. So. So that was, like, the main goal of this, and I. I really want to get back to that.
And, you know, speaking of relationships, I got asked a really good question the other day, and that question was, do. Did I believe that we are meant to go through life with a partner?
And like I said, the irony in this episode and what I'll probably title it, is based in relationships. Whether they be friendships or romantic relationships, I do believe that, you know, there are different.
Well, let me start here.
Let me start with my answer.
So my answer was kind of twofolded, because that's just me. I try to look at things from all angles, but more importantly, I'm going based on my own perspective.
I said yes, and I said no, and I said yes because we all desire human connection. I think that is the thing that everyone at some point does desire.
Sometimes those relationships are toxic.
Sometimes they're healthy, Sometimes they're for the moment.
But I guess for me, I guess the idea of maybe needing someone, because I'm not gonna say needing someone, because that was. That wasn't the original question, but I. I think that's what kind of came to mind when I heard partnership needing.
You get what I'm saying? And I think the reason why I Said no was because I've seen people do life without partnership.
By all means. I don't know how these individuals handle things or do things.
I don't know if it's, you know, I wish I had a partner, but I'm holding, you know, I'm holding strong or, you know, I'm pretending to not need, or they really just generally don't need anybody and they're in a space of comfort. You know, I have a very good friend who does not desire any kind of relationship.
They are in a space where they are happy with where their life is.
They don't deal with any drama.
And, you know, their life is awesome right now, as they. As they put it.
And I know people who do desire love and partnership and want those things. And I also think that looks different, I guess. All right, I feel like I'm writing, but let me get back to my answer, because again, my answer was twofold.
In one part of my answer, I said that I feel like depending on what type of class you're in, the rules change for you.
You know, if.
If you're a lower class, middle class, upper class, you know, the idea of a partner changes depending upon which class you're in.
So I would say if you're someone who's in the lower class, yes, partnership is essential for survival.
I don't know if it's based in real romance or just loving the individual, But I do believe if you're poor or in a lower class, that partnership really depends upon your survival. I know a lot of people who have put up with situations longer than they should have simply because they were afraid to step out on their own or they didn't want to take the hardship of doing things on their own.
They had a certain lifestyle that they, you know, got themselves into.
Meaning, you know, because I do have a partner, I'm able to maybe go out once a week, twice a month, whatever, or take a vacation, whatever. But if that partner is no longer around, then I am unable to do any of those things because now all financial responsibilities fall upon me.
And God forbid you have children, because that's another thing in itself.
And I think once you get to, like, the middle class and the upper middle class, that's when it becomes more optional, I think, you know, you can kind of base the relationship in an emotional state. I'm not saying people at the lower class don't have emotions either, but I think once they connect, it's kind of hard for them to separate. Whereas, though people in the middle and upper middle Class, you know, if they don't want to be with these people anymore, they can probably just go along without being with those people. Unless, again, the lifestyle has changed so dramatically that if the person was to leave, they're unable to keep up with their own personal lifestyles. Now, I think once you get into this space of, like, rich, wealthy, options change.
Again, I. I'm not in those spaces yet because I do believe I will be rich one day. Shout out to me. I really do believe that.
But I think the rules for them are just a lot different, at least from.
I'm not gonna say things I've studied, but just, you know, following certain content, you know, indulging in celebrity gossip, you find that a lot of the patterns are somewhat the same, especially in, excuse me, Sorry, guys, Especially in failed marriages, you kind of find that, you know, the man has cheated and, you know, they're not together anymore or the relationship isn't going how it should because, you know, both parties are participating in activities that may not be seen favorable, which is kind of selfish in a way, because it's like, how are you gonna go do your thing and then not go do my thing? And now it's a problem. But you do find that a lot in some of these situations. But my point is, I think partnership really changes depending upon what class you fall in and how that looks for you.
I think that when you do have a space of being able to take care of yourself, or quote, unquote, not in survival mode, you can base your partnerships more on how you feel.
And when you have the ability to do the work, you know, get healthy or whatever they call it, whatever you want to call it, when you find the emotional intelligence that you do desire someone who shares the same outlooks on life as you.
I think that some of us may have gotten to a point where we try, we try, we try, we try.
And the only time we ever have peace is when we're truly alone.
And sometimes we just stay in that space.
It's like, you know, I don't have no drama going on. You know, you start hearing, you know, when you single, you start hearing stories of how other people's relationships are. And it's like, ooh, I'm glad I ain't gotta deal with that, or, ah, that's crazy. You know what I'm saying? So it's like, that's how I feel in this moment.
Like, I think it's just so twofold right now.
I mean, I don't personally think I want to go through life Alone.
And I think I've been thinking about this question a lot because it's like, do I want to go through life alone? You know, do I do. Do I wanna build a family and these things? You know, I don't want to wait too late either.
But at the same time, I understand, like, wanting peace and just being in those spaces of just, like, I don't have to worry about if someone's doing me wrong or have to worry about if I want to entertain something or someone that, you know, there's drama behind it.
So it's like. I don't know. I. I personally, I'm still kind of twofold with it, with the question. But I guess if I'm being.
If I had to choose.
If I had to choose, then no. No one should be doing life alone at all, I don't think. I think that we do need, like, friendships because, you know, isolation is a punishment in jail. They do that for a reason, because of human connection.
I do think we do need community or, you know, people we fall back on. But I don't necessarily know if we need partnership.
Right. Because I. I know, again, single people who have great friendships and they don't desire any romantic partnerships.
So that was something to think about.
I'm sorry if I was ranting. I was really trying to get my thoughts together because that conversation lasted about two days. And it was a lot of back and forth and a lot of, you know, playing the devil's advocate with the situation. But ultimately, I guess, again, if I had to answer the question, yes, we do need people.
I think you have to be crazy to not want some type of human connection. But, you know, there are probably people out there that's like that.
Well, I guess I'm gonna end things here.
These will definitely be longer as I figure out the direction that I am going into.
Again, I just really wanted to kind of break the ice with this.
I've been getting questions about it, and I don't want y' all to think, like, again, there's any. That there's not any hate or any type of beef with the people who did help me with this. Again, I am forever grateful for those people because they helped move this forward and they helped me sharpen my skills. You know, I learned how to edit very well, very quickly because of this. I learned how to utilize equipment that I wasn't utilizing for the longest time and, you know, again, shout out to them because they gave me their time, energy, and, you know, even money at times.
So we're gonna end it here, and I think I'm gonna start underneath with, you know, some good vibes.
And I pray that I don't get any type of copy right situation with this. You know, I don't know how Joe Button does this music thing. I think Apple doesn't really do anything. But I'm gonna leave y' all with one of my favorite songs from one of my favorite artists. And you know, I'll tap in with y' all sooner than later.
[00:17:11] Speaker B: I was broke pocket full of lit Now I'm on the bricks getting paid like no other dog Now I'm stacking chips on the road like a trucker man had to take some trips doing shows for my brothers Butt strapped with extra clips just in case any sucker would wanna run his lips a female I don't trust A car swimming like a chip I say all about my daddy Green hair with some time and some crimes that was painted seem still gettin mine all this hate I'm hearing though you I ain't fearing better try to be going old main Richard cheering escalate what a nigga steering last days near it trying to get it right with God Only one who I'm fearing hoping I'm a fake Chances boh nigga took your pain so I take it Nipping like a player should.
